It's been awhile!

Oh dear. It looks like I haven't kept my promise of posting once a week. Well, at least I know I have a bit to talk about! First off I want to apologize for not posing for so long. Since Spring Quarter started up on March 28th I have been very busy with a new schedule along with one surprise after another. It's been very hectic and I keep forgetting myself in all the crazyness.
So let me start where I left off, a few days before Spring Break. That Sunday I got to drive myself to choir! It was the best feeling ever. Being alone in that astro van, cruising along with no one to tell me what to do. I got the first taste of freedom and that taste wont go away.
I thanked God at mass that day, praying that he would keep me safe and that I would always drive responsibly. I thanked him for all of the amazing things he had done for me over the past weeks and then asked him to watch over me during Spring Quarter. I was a very happy person!


Then...Monday came, the first day of Spring quarter. It was so overwhelming. My first class was math. I wasn't use to being in an in-class math class, I had always done it online. Well, the teacher is very different than what I'm use to. She doesn't seem to really care about much other than how neat a paper should look. She didn't even hand out a syllabus. She doesn't really teach, just lecture about nonsense. It's really annoying and I don't like it at all.
Next was a piano class. I had taken a piano class in Fall quarter so I was use to the pianos and such, but this class is different. It is a computer piano class, you know, play something and then edit it on the computer? I said "Ah why not. Two friends are signing up and I know piano playing and computer technicals." Well, I have no idea what I'm getting into. It's something totally new. My friends, one being Colin (You remember, the kid who wants to "save" me? ;) ) and his friend, I'll just call him Mike, well they took to the class like fish in water. Yeah, I know Colin is great at the piano, heck I'm jealous, but I should be able to do just fine in this class. But I keep having blond moments or something (Call it what you want...). Arghhh!!! It's so frustrating. =/
Anyway my other class is online, History 101. This was the class I was dreading the most because of all the reading and writing. But so far this class is the best! Other than the fact that they think we evolved from monkeys (Silly evolutionists!) it's really great. I love reading about ancient history and all those events.


So anyway, the classes are just really clashing; taking up all of my time, making me go crazy, forgetting myself. I keep getting so angry especially at my family. I know this may seem harsh but I need to get out. I need to move out and taste that freedom again. I guess the problem is this......You know that astro van I talked about? The one I drove to taste that freedom? Well, my mom and dad sold it last Tuesday. My only means of escape. Yes, we have another vehicle but us kids aren't allowed to drive it. So here I am with a license and a want for freedom and I have no means of escape. My sister Jeanne and I are looking to get a loan to buy a car sometime this coming week, but it seems as if she's not even trying to look. I really need to get a car!
Ahhh, anyway. That's what we did today; went out looking at cars and then got home and searched online. It seems God is really and truly testing my patience, with my friends and family. My friends he uses to taunt me about not being able to drive to school and about my blond moments (Haha) and my Family he uses to test my temper. I have become so frustrated with my dad. If you knew him you'd understand, but I don't feel like ranting about him online. Today I said something to my mom I really regret and I know it was wrong...It just came out. I'm just so confused. Over homework and this lent I can't balance it out. I'm going crazy!


My God, I believe in you, I trust in you.
I love you above all things.
With all my heart, and mind, and strength.
I love you because you are supremely good and worth loving,
And because I love you I am sorry with all my heart for offending you.
Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner,
Amen.


*Sigh* I really need to focus on God. Lent is ending soon and I feel as if I haven't done anything to prove my love for him. Lent is a time where you reserve a bit of your life over the span of 40 days to focus on God. You offer up sacrifices for him. I feel like I haven't done a single thing for him except get angry. Tomorrow I can't stay longer after mass to say a couple more prayers before going to talk to friends like I did last week, but I can focus on mass itself, the blood and body of Christ is present and I have forgotten the importance of mass ever since things got busy. Singing has become a distraction instead of helping me stay focused because of our new Music Coordinator. But since I got to pick out music for tomorrow and I know they are good songs I can stay focused and start some new Lenten sacrifices for last two weeks of Lent.


So other than my failure as a Catholic to stay true to the Lenten season not too much has happened!
This is about the 3rd week of Spring Quarter and I am beginning to get use to my new-found friends. Mike and his girlfriend are really quite amusing. I found out his girlfriend is my old highschool teachers daughter! It was so weird but really funny. =)
Anyway, as for Colin...I cant figure out how I feel about him. He's a Christian who wants to save everyone around him. His friends are Christian as well but they don't know about our little discussion, haha(This is good because I don't want them ganging up on me!) Other than being a Christian he is really quite funny and as I said before he is very talented at the piano. As a test I gave him some sheet music from my favorite movie Gladiator. Apparently that is one of his favorites too and he's now halfway through the song. I am very jealous!
Though I am just waiting for him to bring up our discussion again...I'm keeping my distance...But I cant help but want to hang out with him and his group of friends, they're so open and funny. =)


So! Now that your up to speed with what's going on I'll leave you now. I will try as hard as I can to remember to post again at the end of this coming week. It's just really hard to remember with all of my homework.


Well, God bless and watch over you! Hope you're all doing better with your Lenten Sacrifices than I am!
In Jesus Christ,
~Katherine


Coming up next: Hopefully some good news on a car and better Lenten sacrifices!

Lord,
what you ask of my life seems so right.
It is how I want to live,
following your Son, Jesus, so closely.
And yet I fail so often to stay on that path.
I cannot do it alone, loving Lord.
I need your help and guidance.
I need to remember your love for me
and I want to remember
how very much I need you in my life.

Amen.

Jesus Christ be with me, always.