Just gonna get right back to where I was!
July 6th we took some time off from all the crazy holiday stuff and went to a beach we usually go to every year. I'm not fond of beaches at all, and that day I just really missed our beautiful forest back home. Here we were on a very beautifully sunny day and I was at one of my least favorite places. Don't get me wrong, I love the beach, but only the ones with the vast ocean in front of you with the high rocky cliffs. Not this beach...it's tiny and public and everyone and their dogs go there, haha. Anyway, I was just very happy to go back home that night, the countryside is the life for me, everything smells clean, looks clean and feels clean. As my facebook status said "Hooooome sweet home!"
July 7th I really didn't do anything. I was getting really depressed about the job searching I had started. Nothing was coming from all the applications I had put out and no one was calling me. I was going back and asking about them, but still, nothing happened. So yeah, that day I prayed to God to help me with job hunting. Also, I believe it was the same day, I finally got into the New Testament! I felt so at home reading those familiar verses. That made my night! (I am currently just finishing up on John.)
July 8th this day was exactly what I was praying for! I went out as planned and checked in at the places I had put my applications in at, one of which was a clothing store I was really hoping to get a job at. It was my first stop so I was nervous. All I planned on doing was talking to the hiring manager about my application, which was exactly what I got...Plus more. We talked a little bit and then he asked me to follow him to his Office. There he gave me a quick interview! I was so excited, I think I did really good, considering it was unplanned and I was unprepared. He said he would call me within the coming week, so I've had my fingers crossed the whole time. Pray for me! (It's Wednesday and I'm going to call Thursday, even though he said he would call...Why do I have a bad feeling about this?)
July 9th - ?
July 10th very refreshing, our new priest is just so good at what he does, I find myself leaning forward to listen to his homily, instead of going off in my own little world and not paying attention to mass at all. I could feel hope rising in me, God was working his wonders in our lives, slowly but quite surely. And to express my joy, I get to share an experience I have not had for quite a few years. After mass I built up the courage to talk to Father about something I had wanted to do. A couple weeks ago after going to confession I noticed our Parish flower garden was very overgrown, if my memory served me correctly it had been way too long since it had been weeded. As a little girl I had always loved playing in the garden, it had a beautiful fountain and a statue of Mary in a little grotto, and a big rock that all the kids loved to climb on. Now the fountain is broken, the Mary statue was surrounded by thorns and moss, and the rock had grass growing just as tall as it.
So, I asked Father if I could weed it. My mom warned me that he may not allow it since he's not quite familiar on what we do and don't do and all. But I decided to ask anyway. To my great relief and joy he said of course and to come by any time. =) I asked my two sisters, Marie and Anne, if they would like to come with me, and then we also got some of our younger cousins to help out! If felt like old times, only...I was the sort of "youth leader". I can definitely see myself doing something like this in the future. Anyway, we got a quarter of the garden done and now we're just waiting for good weather to work on it again. Life is good!
July 11th I didn't do much in the morning, just daily mass. But at 1:30 I went up Mt. Peak with my sister Anne and I invited Colin. It was a very funny experience. She is a very shy person and doesn't really like talking, plus she wasn't use to climbing as fast as us. So at one point, while taking a large drink of water I told her not to drown herself by gulping so fast. Colin laughed because he has never heard that expression. Then, while her mouth was full of water he began to poke fun by turning his voice a pitch higher and said "Don't droooown Anne! Don't drown!" With that, she burst out all the water and laughed. It was really funny! =) I'm glad she came, we don't often hang out together.
July 12th....Absolutely nothing...I'm serious! Nothing done! Morning mass, lounged around all day, read the Bible and then watched a movie that night. Exciting right? Ahhhhh!
July 13th today wasn't too different really. Went to morning mass with my mind wide open, read the Bible, turned in some applications at McD's and Taco Time. Later I was told mom had a book for me from the library. YAY! Excitement! I had been waiting for this.
Last week I got a book from the Library called The Centurion's Wife. It is a really good Christian book, about the days following Jesus' death. The main character is the niece of Pilate, and she is soon betrothed to a Centurion who is given the order to discover a mystery of a missing body. A prophet's body. Can you guess who? Jesus! The outcome was rather obvious but I really enjoyed the whole thing. Anyway, today I got the second book, so far it's just as good! It's really making me wish I had lived in Jesus' time, to see all of his miracles and be with all of his disciples. But I have to remind myself of what Jesus said "Blessed are those you do not see but believe" In the book it talks about how some of the first believers were having trouble believing as well, since they had not seen but how God kept revealing himself to them through little miracles. I've taken note of this, since I will admit that I am having trouble concentrating on my faith. From my lack of job, my dads lack of job, the questions unanswered about my friends and what impact they have on my life...And really where I'm going in life.
I'm trying to open my heart and eyes to God and trust in him to show me what I'm looking for.
I constantly feel that I'm being challenged by my Presbyterian about my faith, even though they themselves have not done anything to challenge me but have invited me to do things with them. Why is it disturbing me so much? Is it the fact that I'm afraid that I can't defend my faith? Or is it that I'm frustrated that they wont accept me as a Catholic. I just want to be friends without worrying about them pestering me and making me doubt what I know for a fact is the truth. Arghhh!
Lord Jesus, let Your prayer of unity for Christians
become a reality, in Your way
we have absolute confidence
that you can bring your people together
we give you absolute permission to move
Amen
So! Now I'm all caught up and I hope to post another blog before things get too busy!
God Bless and I hope you are stronger in this faith of ours than I am!
~Katherine
P.S. Some sites that have helped me through my time of distress and a bit of confusion.
http://forums.catholic.com/
http://www.davidmacd.com/catholic/index2.htm
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